feeling sad...

ooohhhhhhhhhhh
i cant focus at this moment....
do no stop to expect...
something...
that might u reach...
ooohhhhhhh
i want to sleep forever...
i boring with this life...
too much inner conflict...
despite outer too...
i cant control my mind....
i cant control my attitude...
please help mee...
somebody out there...
can u reach me...
halloo....
im here n supposed to be near of death...
now im dying....an agony life....
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Happy todays and will happy tommorow....

my friend ever asked me...why i looked always happy in my daily life...and i ask again why not...? happy is my rights...if you think this life is a choices...i choice sad out from my daily life...whatever the condition i forced my life to be happier than before...happy is something you can feel not only ucan seen....feel happines not like look happines...i feel happines although i hungry with someone else or do something that makes my forehead wrinkles....happines is not like that...happines is something u can feel no matter what happens near or outside you....happines is multiple choises beneath ur natural state....

Happiness is our natural state. Happiness is the natural state of little children, to whom the kingdom belongs until they have been polluted and contaminated by the stupidity of society and culture. To acquire happiness you don't have to do anything, because happiness cannot be acquired. Does anybody know why? Because we have it already. How can you acquire what you already have? Then why don't you experience it? Because you've got to drop something. You've got to drop illusions. You don't have to add anything in order to be happy; you've got to drop something. Life is easy, life is delightful. It's only hard on your illusions, your ambitions, your greed, your cravings. Do you know where these things come from? From having identified with all kinds of labels! (Anthony de mello)



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this pure energy used to tap my needs...

after graduation i have to begin my first step with some fixed direction...first goal is get a job...whole of my conscius energy directed to get this goal....since long ago i have a habit to use my whole energy to setting and reach my own goal, own obsession...that already proven since long ago...
i need some extra time some extra energy if i do not use my counscious energy to get my obsession, wasting energy directed to some useless something is not my principality on this life...energy is everything...as u might knows this world and universe is the big pool of energy, what do you think and what do you feel unite in this big pool of universe energy. based on their natural characteristic, energy only pull other energy which has some character with it....so you just be aware and carefull always with ur energy....direct it...and use it for useful manner....God Luck friends.... Read More......

Graduation ceremony...

two years ago...when i pass an examination to join a post graduate program in master of coastal engineering in 10 th november institut of technology Surabaya...i had no idea how can i pass this study n get the tittle...even before when i pass in front of the graha ITS ( is building which usually be used for post graduate ceremony) i ask my self and feel a little hesitate...could i entering this building...but fortunately ( i didnt expect more before) finally now 2 th october 2010 i finish my study and being ratified as a master of coastal engineering in 10th november institut of technology surabaya...i just want to say....how become i can pass this difficult test withous some help from my loved friends...i hope u all can succesfull during this life...and we can together follow or run this life with a newly set of mind....can step higher than before...can see farther than before...can think longer than before....i wish i could more confident than before....finally thx friend...hope this meet be immortal... Read More......

halo night Surabaya...

i surrounded by the air...
i feel i almost finish...
but still missing....
tommorow saturday...
i do my graduation party...
leaving surabaya n malang didnt i expect before...
i attach to this town...
i attach to this village...
i attach to this air...
i can kiss the smell...
i can feel the crowd...
just feel this crazy2 love....
and million of memories...
i try to erase this little by little...
and im sure...
that i come to living in this town again...
somewhere...someday...
kiss u...just love...i come with love...
i stay with love...
and i leave with love...
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